Shifting Priorities to the True Self!!!

Dear Readers:

For the past few weeks, I have been giving more attention to the expansion of my career while preparing for a move out of state. It has been an experience and learning process of balancing giving attention to myself, home, career, relationships, and our move. 

I love awareness and being more of my True Self, however, I realized that my priority shifted from my True Self to my outward reality of moving, career etc. Nothing right or wrong, however, I realized that my entire way of being changed and I was not enjoying anything, it felt like work and obligations instead of an adventure.

So I decided to give myself some time to nourish my body and connect with a girlfriend of mine that does yoga. So, I attended her class and had such a shift, greater clarity and re-focus of my internal lenses. My antennas simply changed channels to the frequency of my Higher Self, and as a result, I felt more joyful, free, and grounded in my body. It’s like where the heck did I go? Its amazing how the lower self takes over and one may easily feel its the True Self. It can be blinding.

So my awareness was loud and clear, the first and primary focus is the True Self and that my career is simply the expression of my Authentic Self. That one’s career can only be to the extent of one’s growth and expansion within the Self. The more we align with our True Nature and  become less of the unaligned ego, it becomes sincerely easier and effortless to create success. All the planets align and elements of the universe appear willingly to serve with you, for one steps into divinity as the True Self. When this occurs, everything comes to one’s command. So instead of working outside in, I shifted to focusing my lens to inside out!

The more I am my True Self, then all my desires of an expansive career, harmonious relationships, healthier commitments and so forth become easily attainable in the physical form, because it has been solidified within the formless as a firm decision which create immediate sometimes or maybe all the time miraculous results. 

As such, from now on, the True Self is the first priority and commitment to integrate and align with, for it is then, that all flows with effortless ease and grace within one’s life. Oneness unites the opposites of the natural forces that exists within us and thus creates a harmonious world within  that expresses itself in the outside world. When each of us assume our rightful god responsibility to be a citizen of this earth land and utilize one’s creative ability in alignment with nature, then the world we know as today will literally change before our eyes.

It is my purpose, vision and utmost desire to live and BE the ultimate Goddess, fully aligned with all of life and the creative forces, assisting all our brothers and sisters to awaken to the Truth, that we have always been gods expressing ourselves. We can truly be the change we decide to be in the world, all it requires is one’s commitment to the True Self, a daily moment to moment decision to constantly choose the True Self, and all the assistance from Source, helpers, guides, universe etc come willingly to serve one’s evolutionary awakening.

Blessed Be and may the journey of the True Self become the first and utmost desire in your heart. It is only then that true joy and happiness can be experienced as a way of being.

Namaste

Goddess Toni-Ann

Oneness Wave of 2014!

Dear Readers:

What is Oneness and why is it important?

Oneness is a state of being, a consciousness that embraces all of creation as itself. It excludes no one or nothing. Oneness sees all of life as part of itself. In the dimension of duality, Oneness has its polar opposite in expression as Separation. They both co-exist and are expressions of the whole. Oneness expresses itself without blame and assumes complete responsibility and accountability for every incident, occurrence and experience. 

So, lets break it down even further. 

In our society, we are taught from a very young age that we are separate from our neighbor, friend, teacher, stranger or even a homeless person on the street. Some of us have different skin colors, families, talents and gifts so we unconsciously adapt the belief system that we are separate from each other. It’s engrained in society so even though one’s parent’s may not have literally said you are separate than everyone, it is understood based upon the unconscious collective belief system of society. Separation thereby breeds all manner of blame, irresponsibilities, hate, malicious intent upon another, unforgiveness and so forth. 

 

The Highest Truth is that we are all one. We all have the same feelings or emotions and were created with similar physical expressions (male /female/ both). Our True Self is formless, space, stillness, spirit whilst the body is the expression of our consciousness (energy and information in matter form). Take a look at the space around and notice that it exists. Then look at your body form and notice that  it is made up of tissues, organs, muscles and bones. It is simply a vehicle of expression. It houses the spirit. My point here is that we are all coming from the one universal SPACE and are each individually expressing ourselves as a god beings. And although we have different forms/bodies and belief systems, we are still ONE.

When we truly believe with every atom of our being that we are ONE, then our lives would transform 180 degrees in no time. It would transcend our way of being and expression. HOW?

1. When we no longer believe that there is a God or Source that exists outside of us then we can begin to access the essence of our god selves within.  As above (heaven) so below (earth). This is similar to parents who have children. There is one universal existence of Source. Within that Source is the expression of the Masculine and Feminine, Yin and Yang and they reproduce and have children. These children have the same dna and expression of their parents, are not less than their parents, have usually the same genes, gifts and talents that are passed down to them. Same way, we are god beings created in the very image of the one Source. We have the same powers and genes.This realization will cure immediately any feelings of separation.

The correction is in the belief of who we think we are. Often times when we look in the mirror, we see ourselves as the physical body and personality when in fact we are neither of these things. We are the formless, the silent witness looking down on our body. Detaching from form as one’s sense of self is key to transformation, otherwise, one becomes stuck and locked into the fallacy of expressing one’s self as the physical body. Believing one is the body is limiting, rather I suggest, expand one’s sense of self outside the body and see what happens.  We have simply given ourselves a body suite to express ourselves on earth. We are all god beings as our true nature. At first, I could not believe this because I had every thought or belief that I was this terrible sinner that was condemned. I was trying to save my soul and get to heaven. When truly in fact, it was my own belief system/ consciousness that started to create this movie scene outside of me like it was real. Watch the Matrix, this movie is so deep and truly reflects the truth.

2. When one truly believes that we are all one, then you know that you are the cause of all experiences. Therefore, everything that you are experiencing in your reality, from the telephone call from your boss, to the kiss on the cheek from your child, to the door bell ringing, is your creation from beginning to end. That there is no one causing anything to happen to you. You are the total authority and co-creator of your life. This is HUGE. Why? For if we continue to live as victims to our lives or circumstances, then we become the form and detach from the true god being that we are. Victims are at the effect of, they feel self pity and blame everyone else for their problems. Therefore they remain powerless because they have not acknowledged the first and most important thing, that we are the one’s creating everything. It is only when we take responsibility that we assume our drivers seat as commander of our ship. Giving away your power and rightful command to another through blame automatically relinquishes god power. 

So for those of us in relationships, how often do we blame our partner or loved one for a behavior or something we do not like? Many times. Why? Because we are afraid to own the very things about ourselves that we dislike in others. Every mirror or reflection we see in another whether light or dark is a reflection of we are. So when everyone starts recognizing this truth then we can start cleaning up our own inner temple, beliefs etc and heal the collective conscious and unconsciousness of humanity. 

In the news, most of the collective murders, rapes or catastrophes are as a result of the collective unconscious, the very things we project unto others and the world. If we can all assume our responsibilities as god beings, these projections will diminish so we can have a better world to live in. The true reality is within, the outer reality is only the expression of what exists inside.

So how do we implement more of oneness consciousness, we do this through daily self observation from the space of the Higher Self (formless, silent witness). When we observe ourselves with neutrality, no judgment of good or bad, right or wrong, simply just is, then we can finally listen to our repetitive thoughts/beliefs and projections, become aware of it, then decide what is the truth and then affirm through invocations and practice. I highly recommend a program called Self Discovery Life Mastery in Fort Lauderdale Florida. I travel out of state to their workshops because I have never met a group of trainers that are so aware. They teach techniques  that are so experiential rather than just theory, its practical. I apply the techniques in my life and they are making a significant change and difference. 

There are many changes, however, the most important one so far for me is, I am more aware of myself as Source and not this physical body. This is huge for me because I was taught and had believed that I had to do something to be godlike or I had to get to my True Self. Now, I have realized that I am already the True Self. My believe now is integrating my True Self here in the physical body more rather than trying to see myself as the personality trying to get to the True Self. The more yearning and trying to get somewhere will only create more of that. 

I still have more to integrate of my True Self in the body (stillness) however, even the slightest change means a world of a difference. I feel more in command of my reality, more aware and present, and such a peace and stillness within my physical body and way of being, its orgasmic.

So here are some invocations you can start commanding:

• I AM ONE
• I AM MY TRUE SELF
• I AM ALL THAT I DESIRE TO BE AND EXPRESS
• I AM WHOLE AND COMPLETE
• I AM FULLY PRESENT
• I AM HERE NOW
• I AM NOT THE BODY MIND
• I HAVE A BODY AND MIND
• I AM NOT MY THOUGHTS
• I HAVE THOUGHTS
• I AM NEUTRALITY
• I AM AWARE

If you have any comments or questions, please feel free to share. I would love to hear about your journey.

Blessed Be!

Toni-Ann

 

Internal Battle of the Higher & Lower Self

Dear Readers:

For the past few days, I have been observing an internal battle between my Higher and Lower Self. It has been even more intensified, almost unbearable. I have also been experiencing a tearing away of beliefs of what I thought was my TRUTH.

So after a weekend of feeling stuck and in my head, I meditated in the late night to early morning and was given the following revelation.

I am not who I think I am. All along, I have been identifying with this body as my sense of self. Even though, I have done workshops, attended seminars and trainings, read many books, there was still a part of me that felt I was my body. I have realized that Truth is first introduced to the conscious mind, yet, it’s like a seed that requires nourishing and watering, or it will become easily buried in the accumulation of information and non-sense.

So, a little background before I explain my discovery. Since childhood I was always on the search for truth. I joined many churches and religions and could not find rest for my soul. I was raised in Jamaica where most of the churches are based on Christianity. So, my foundational beliefs of God were the following:

• God/Source lived in the sky and the devil lived outside and were two separate forces that existed outside of me.
• I believed that God/ Source was distant and a very angry punishable God. Concept of right and wrong.
• I believed that Jesus Christ was God
• I believed that I was a sinner, unworthy and corrupt in God’s sight.

These are only a few of the beliefs I acquired as a child. Now, after some years of purging, I have been able to pluck up some of those roots and start re-planting seeds of what I consider to be TRUTH. I am still in the learning process, plucking and re-planting phase, yet, I will share my personal awareness thus far.

Last night, I was guided to meditate on detaching from the physical body as my sense of self and to truly 100% believe that I was more than the physical. So I directed my attention to space and the formless in my immediate surroundings and allowed myself to melt into it simply by observing space. Then, the awareness of the truth of the Higher and Lower Self became more real.

In the bible, it describes the fall of Lucifer/the Devil from the Heavens into earth. It describes that Lucifer became filled with pride and felt he could out-beat God. He felt puffed up and started to Edge God Out (aka EGO). It seems that at first, the Higher and Lower Self were operating as ONE in the formless. However, when the ego’s consciousness changed from oneness to separation, it became more dense and is now the representation of the physical form.

To this date, there is still that rift of anger and separation between the aspect of Self that is GOD. The Higher Self of all of us is God/Source and the Lower Self is the unaligned Ego (aka devil in bible terms) that exists within, not outside. To this date, the ego believes it is in control and most of us believe that we are the physical body, yet, we have forgotten that we have another aspect of ourselves, which is the Higher Self, the formless.

So recently, I noticed that the force of the ego was very strong and unwilling to change and surrender to the will of my Higher Self. Despite my efforts, I felt like my light was being held down by a BIG FUCK U to my Higher Self. Meanwhile, I’m feeling and seeing this occur and I felt like I wanted to run out of my skin. So allowing rather than resisting the experience made it more easier for me to handle.

The Higher Self is pure awareness, without form, the observer, like SPACE. The Lower Self believes it is the physical form and has the consciousness of being small, restricted and requires a lot of self importance.  I realized that everyone walking on this earth is God in expression. That each one of us has a higher self and lower self, and the collective Higher Self is God and the collective Lower Self is the Ego. Therefore, we are not separate but ONE at its true Source. We simply have different FORMS & BELIEFS OF TRUTH.

Often times, I have had great judgment on my lower self and habitual patterns that seem unaligned with my True Self. I have realized that the Higher Self and Lower Self cannot live without each other. I cannot get rid of the Lower Self, it must be acknowledged and brought into alignment with the Higher Self. They are ONE. Most new age teachings train us to ignore the negative thoughts and ignore our feelings of anger, hatred, etccc. This only builds up and projects itself unto others and into the world’s unconscious. At first, this was my coping mechanism, however, it only became worse. Positive thinking isn’t the all in all, get real and feel it all. What happens when you lock up a beast in a cage?

The lower self ego is like a child, it requires attention, non-judgment and unconditional love, or else, if it feels like it’s existence is being threatened, it will do anything to survive. It is simply a defense program or creation that was designed on purpose to do this.  Getting rid of it is unwise. So, working together in harmony is key.

I will continue to share my awarenesses with you all as I continue my self discovery.

I would love to hear your comments everyone, if you are experiencing the heightening of this internal battle, please feel free to share.

Love

Toni-Ann

Please note that the information above is considered to be my personal awareness of truth. These discoveries are in no way declared as the absolute truth.  I am still on my journey of discovery, therefore, the above information is subject to change if a Higher Truth is revealed. Thank you.